Day by Day . . .

I am trying to Live day by day now rather than planning and thinking so far ahead.  I had been stuck in the future for so long that after hitting rock bottom I realized I need to stay in the present and worry about TODAY and not tomorrow.

TONIGHT I am in attempts to get rid of the clutter that has consumed my entire room!  While my roommate was smart, got off the couch, and made progress, I continued to sit and veg out to Sex & the City but now I am going to attempt to CLEAN.  I am listening to Adele getting my cleaning self ready :)

How has everyone else been doing?  My life has been rocky and falling apart so instead of focusing on myself I have been trying to focus on others.  Yep, avoidance. . . Yep, not healthy.  I'll get there.

(I have not forgotten about my New Year's Resolution.  Self Care does not mean your life wont be rocky at times . . . but imagine it without these days:)


Self Care: I visited 2 ol' friends from HS days and went to the Rose Bowl Flea Market!  It was AAAA-Mazing.  I bought this partition for a sweeeetttt deal and always wanted one:)

Self Care:  I spent the day with my friend Megan from SDSU.  I have not seen her in ages even though she now lives where I used to live in Los Angeles.  We started off with a walk to Starbucks, followed by going to the Melrose Flea Market where we created our own Fire Bead Bracelets!
Ate lunch at Vienna Cafe on Melrose and finished with a Mani-Pedi at Pampered Hands :)  Everyone needs a day like this more than once in a while . . . it soothes the soul.

Back To Reality . . .

I had an amazing winter vacation complete with meeting many new friends, over-indulging in food, a little exercise, and a long escape!
But now I am back in Cali.  Classes start in 2 days and work has already begun.

I definitely needed this vacation and can vouch for anyone that is a busy-bee like me that taking a Vacation, or having one to look forward to is really helpful to living positively.  Taking a holiday clears your mind of all the clutter that was piling up.  Of course if it was not taken care of before it will still be there when you return.  However, your mind will be more clear and calm when getting back to the mass amounts of work.

Here are some shout-outs and highlights from my trip!

Our Bus

Bajai Gardens in Haifa

The Boys

Slippin those skirts on . . . 

This is the Marriage Chair . . . and Yes I sat in it :)

Our Medic Amit

The Whole Gang!

Dead Sea!

Hadaya . . . every girl's gotta go

Mmmmmm. . . 

The Kotel :)

Got to see Michelle/Rifka in Israel!  The Old CIty Jerusalem to be exact :)

Lets go to Africa . . .

I had an amazing experience at work today.  I've been told by more than one elder that work is work . . . you work to earn money to then play . . . what work is fun . . .
Okay not exactly those quotes but you get the gist. . .

On the contrary, I had an amazing experience at my job today.  My job is not glorious or known as a Fun Job . . . but it is rewarding beyond belief and therapeutic, no pun intended.

Today we got rid of the bad and brought in some new.  We wrote down something negative that we would stop . . . while thinking of something positive to fill the void the negativity gone would leave.  You must fill in the space, wether you get rid of negative or positive because you do not want more negative filling it in.

After writing down the negative that we wanted to get rid of, we threw it in the fire . . . Let me tell you . . . throwing something in the fire is very therapeutic.  Watching something very near and dear, even negativity in your life, is an emotional experience and is very symbolic.

I cannot remember that exact wording of my promise to myself but it was along the lines of,

"I will not let myself manipulate things others say into something negative.  I will not over-think what others say to put myself down.  I will trust the words others use and will not 2nd guess them.  I will never know what others are thinking, so I must trust what is being said."

Again, this was not the exact wording but this is something very important to me.  And it was something very hard to burn . . . The point of the excersize is not to pick something so broad and huge that you cannot really rid of it . . . I believe I picked something bery big but I could no wrap my brain around something smaller.  The only problem is that others cannot see me doing this until its already been thought of in my brain and spit out of my mouth.  I am the only one accountable.

During this year, in which my resolution was "SELF CARE", this exercise is immensely connected.